Those Dead Souls met!

             

I lay there.. lifeless!
Yes!I lie there to be laid to rest..
Though nothing other than my soma is at peace..
But true..I can breathe no more..
And thus they just baptized me "Dead"!

Looking back! I still bear so many questions..
What did I do! What could I have done!
Suddenly realizing that life was just a short sojourn
where..in the end..
being hunted dead by a fanatic bullet..
my body was carried from a pile of cadavers..
to a necropolis..and then...
hastily inhumed to lay in rest!
Yes! I was the innocuous victim of a terrorist attack!!

             

                                 

I am no more human now..
Neither a 'living dead'.
Just a soul..
that's incessantly getting restless!

Shrills cries yells and mourns echo deep into my ears
So,I choose to migrate to some habitat
a soul can bear!
           
On my itinerary to my destiny after life..
I met "him"..walking beside me..
hands red in blood.. uninterrupted pride on his face..
hatred loaded with satisfaction..no fake masks of shame!

                               

                                       

Yet, at our cores we were still the same..
"He" killed for his own rabid causes..
I wanted to live  for mine!

It was a short walk together..
and we had no words to exchange.. nor time...
just some simple yet mysterious thoughts in our heads..
when suddenly the path diverged into two..
his was into fire... and mine towards elan!
fire that would burn his hatred
elan that would provide me life.
maybe this is the hell and heaven that different religions had defined!
We kept walking on..
just in a hope to meet a better me and him..
........................................in our next lives ....................!

           

Life @ RED LIGHT - a world at the periphery of the society...

                     

This Time
Lets stray and unveil..
the conspiracy.. that hides...
amidst the brio of these CITY lights !!

Cause
the deeper U encroach upon the city life
the better U agnize...
that after a few paces inside
the white life turns "red"..
and bespeaks the beginning of
THE REDLIGHT!

Yea!!
Out there,exists what U call the
CITY OF SINS..
                 

Yes!!
Amidst an inexplicable starkness,
beyond the reach of law,
prevails...
-this symbol of borrowed passion..
-this icy figure of lust
and at certain times
-the mecca for animalistic desires ..!

The world whose testimony when read
reflects nothing other than
Anguish..Betrayal..Prostitution and Sex!
     
               

The world
whose habitants are just
"nameless shapes" in a gloomy place..
yet another daughter lost to a sad disgrace..
yet another miserable,cautioning tale..
and..
yet another cheapened "thing" who's up for sale..

Here dwells the "lass"
whose affections are misunderstood when named
whose love was crippled for fortune and fame
and the one..
whose voice outcries the pain of rejection
cause "here"- life when turns "grey".. is life in "vain"!

Yep!!
This is where..
ethics are sacrificed for bucks and bread..
And shame and love is what life lacks..
                      

But when U stand on "their" land..
true is the fact..
that the world outside looks filthier than these redlights..
Reason being..
what the air "here" attests within..is just a trade..
with no screams of assault .. and
above all..
no fear of RAPE!

GOODBYE.. (blessed to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard!)

                             


















Memories overflow
as I pack my bags..
and its gonna be time
to beckon a "Goodbye"..

And Mom Dad.. i know that..
as i step out of the door...
your blessings will harbor along a "smile"
but what U and I will strain to conceal....
are the tears that hold within-the pain-to be shed by..
PAIN.. that this DISTANCE dissevers us..
FRIGHT...that i leave UNACCOMPANIED to the extramural world.....

Blessed was the day i took my first breath...
Cause I got a man in my life that can't be replaced..
for this LOVE was unconditional..
and that's u "DAD"..

                         

And this moment..
as i uplift my bag and walk a few steps
towards the walk of my life..
i pause..
i look back..
and i see you there waving me a "Goodbye" with a smile..
and this moment.. i realize Dad
how alacritously TIME has passed by!

                           

Didn't agnize..
when my demands altered from
candies to a lappy.
 and
 a walk in your arms in the park to a ride in the car...!!
but yeah!!now that makes me realize Dad..
TIME rapidly passed by!!

U taught me to walk with my finger in your hand..
That day it was a small path .. few footsteps..
Today it's a path true to LIFE..
but its the same "U" Dad...whose TRUST in me..
will let me ace to the shores..that bid me a "hi"..

Not just a shoulder to cry on..
 or a companion to laugh with..
but "U" were and will always be
an answer to each strange question
that time stages with it.. :-)
                               

And while I am packing my bags..
I listen to the dishes clink..
 I am looking at you Mom
as you cook for me in the kitchen..
And I'll miss you mom...
more than I ll ever show.
more than you will ever know.!.

Cause since the day i have opened my eyes..
Its you the one with the most comforting smile..
the most lucid eyes..
the only guide to the unsung rhymes of  life...with..
the most innocent answer to my sophisticated whys..
But yep!.. its time now Mom..
N my words surrender..
all i can utter is..
until we meet again..
GOODBYE!  :-)  

Does Life write.. what these lines define!

                                 
                             

The circumstances oblige
and yep! I try...
but they say..
the path I am advancing on..
this pattern ocular on my hand denies
yep! they say:
The lines on my palm abnegate my choice
and when I fail
its gonna be designated my "FATE"..

So
I oppugn this moment
The one who affirmed to be with me for lifetime..
Will you refrain from loving me!
cause the heart line on my palm avers..
a lack of emotions inside..


So
I seek an answer this time
from the doctor who avowed to save lives
Will you cull your patient!
and the beats his heart desires!
since a short life line on his palm
depicts a short life..


So
Mr. Interviewer
let me know if you are ready to recruit me..
since intellectual development and intuitive abilities
are the traits...
reflected by my wisdom line...!


So
shall i believe
that there's nothing left to try for!
cause destiny is what..
these lines on my palm write..


And 
I get a single reply to all the questions i arise..
A limpid "NAH"!
A pellucid deny..

Destiny isn't what the stars abide
or 
what the designs on the palm picturise!!..
They are just excuses to
wrong choices in life..
that hover by!!

DESTINY is simply..what " U" DECIDE!

And "They" raped... " I " am the witness..

Terror embarks the beginning rhyme...
Naah! no more fluxs.. Phew!! no sighs..
Swarthiness around...and ssh.
"THEY" and " I " witness the "GIRL" pass by..
and INIQUITY gets revived......


Tonight ..the devil comes alive
"her" footsteps advance and "they"-
dogs behind the bone-
Trail behind.........
and huh.. " I " witness..
as terror embarks the beginning rhyme..


"HER" brain reeks of spooks around
and "she" blenched.. huh..n " I " witnessed..
Taking random paths in order to flee
was the only option left
but "they" conformed to "her" footsteps..


A hand on "her" shoulder.. other on "her" waist
few screams of resistance...
and "they" dropped the ball
while the city rests.....


Now...no wish to live.. no wish to retaliate...
The perpetrators escaped.. and "she" lies there..
Alive but lifeless..
N  " I "?
" I " didn't turn that way.. neither could  " I " help..
because " I " was just the WIND..
so..  as usual..passed by....leaving "her" at rest!

N " I " commit SUICIDE.. (an end to society's questionnaire)

                         

I'm just a name...
and This moment..


My pulse ceased in a jiff-
Hands went immovable and legs immobile
I no more feel suffocated
Nah!.. this crowd around
no longer poses me a challenge
to struggle for breath..
i require it no more..nah! no zest..

Huh! Yells,weeps,cries,mourns
shoot the breeze around
and yep! " M DEAD "

Won't fabricate..won't sugarcoat
Truth won't be denied
This moment.. I SUICIDE..


Mom..Dad.. i cognize
tears will roll down your eyes
but I implore you This instant
don't call this deplorable..
neither  will " I "..


And This moment
a fullstop to my words..
with an answer to your " WHY ".....

You no longer need to be accountable
to the denizens of this earth
for the DEFAME " I " bring you as i step out..
if "I" be your DAUGHTER
or..
for why am i THWARTED
if " I " be your "SON"..


This is all i accomplish with this demise
Peace of mind in your life
and 
Peace for me
while i rest under the earth
............................afterlife!!